Good gosh golly gee, it has been some time, my friend. I feel like I have lived five lives since the last time I made a post.
Fun fact, I actually have written four or fives posts and just not posted them. Nothing felt exactly right, or maybe I was just overthinking.
This post is actually being written and then uploaded straight away, so if there are typos or grammatical errors that I didn’t catch it is because I didn’t have my lovely mother do a second run through for edits.
Where to begin? I guess I want to say hi! How are you? How have you been? Has life been treating you well? Are you taking the time to take care of yourself?
I suppose it is rude of me to ask these questions and not give you my answers, so here I go.
I am doing good. A statement that actually feels true for the first time in a long, long time.
I have been getting better. Recently I hit a real low in my mental health journey. The lowest I have been in about seven years. Thankfully I have an amazing support system of family and friends. I also turned to my doctor for some help. For the first time in seven years I am back on a medication to help with my mental health, I am blessed with the holy trifecta of anxiety, depression, and OCD. Woohoo. All jokes aside I truly feel so blessed to have the resources that I do available to me and that I was able to get help. Speaking up was super hard, but necessary. If you are struggling, please reach out to someone for help. It could save your life.
Life has been treating me well. It is so funny because if you asked me that question twenty days ago I definitely would’ve had a different answer for you, but that doom and gloom fog is dissipating and I have started to see the sunshine again. This morning I woke up genuinely happy and started to laugh because I couldn’t believe I could just feel joy for no reason. I have two amazing jobs that I am currently working and a third that I get to do in the summer. I am a nanny (now to two amazing kiddos, big sister is doing great and baby is a cute lil squishy human) and I am also a Realtor at Oxford Realty. The jobs are so different from each other but I love them both.
I have really been taking care of myself this month. I am doing the things I enjoy doing and some things that I know I need to do for myself. I am finding peace in slow moments and joy in fast-paced moments. I am looking for the good in things. I am finding the pleasures in simple moments. I am practicing daily habits that promote well being in my mind and body.
Basically I feel like so much has happened since I have talked to you and I feel like a whole new human. I have gone through some pretty big changes which, in return, have changed me.
I am going to try to post more regularly on here to keep you updated, but I make no promises. I have some things to say and some life events to share.
I hope you take the time to check in with yourself today and that you have the courage to be really honest with how you are doing.
Until next time,