Angsty Autumn

Seasonal sadness is a thing that happens to people. Regular sadness is a thing that happens to people. People have anxiety. People have depression. People have problems.

For some reason, these things had been made taboo topics to talk about. Luckily more and more people are opening up about their feelings and things that they are struggling with.

I personally believe that if you are a person who can show your emotions you are so strong. It takes a lot of courage to be open about all the ways you are feeling and what is going on in your head.

I am someone who has had anxiety since a very young age, my whole life that I can remember. Different seasons of my life have brought different levels of severity, but it has always been present.

The most common ways I experience anxiety today are health related, social (maybe this isn’t applicable right now because I do not have a social life because of social distancing), and seasonal sadness (this might better fall under the category of depression).

I have a HUGE background of life with anxiety and depression. Scratching the surface of my story would require a novel-length blog post. But, let’s just say that I have gone through many highs and lows. I have not always been open about what I have gone through and quite frankly I used to be so mortified that I had to go to a therapist and a psychiatrist in order to help me.

Currently I am living day to day life without the help of a licensed professional but I know if I ever need the help that that is a great option and I should never feel ashamed or embarrased about wanting to talk to someone who could help me.

There are a few reasons I wanted to talk about mental health today. One, I believe a lot of people can get in a weird funk when the seasons begin to change. Add on the current state of the world and mental health can really be suffering. Two, September is National Suicide Prevention Month. What better time to talk about mental health than September!

A few weeks ago I was really going through a weird head space. I hadn’t experienced a low like that in quite some time, but it reminded me just how lonely it can feel when your anxiety starts to creep in. Here is something I wrote just after my mental health was getting back to normal.

As you can see mental health can affect all sorts of people. You can get your exercise in, eat nutritious foods, get good sleep, have a great support system, have a seemingly “perfect” life by your standards and still have problems with your mental health.

Does that mean I always feel that way? No. I am so grateful that I have gotten to a point in my life where I do not normally feel super low or drained of energy. But I also know now some things that work for me when I am feeling low.

When I am feeling low I know to rest if I need it. I know I need to eat even if I am not feeling hungry. I know I need to stay hydrated. I know I need to get my body moving. I know staying off social media helps my mind. I know to let the people I love know that I am not doing my best so that if I get worse they can make sure I get the help I need if I am not capable of doing that.

Having a support system who I can literally trust with my life is huge.

If you are someone who is struggling or know someone who is struggling with mental health and want to talk to someone, I am here.

If you need to talk to a professional, the number for the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is 800-273-8255.

Know that you are worthy of living a happy and healthy life.

It is okay to not feel okay sometimes. You will get through it.

Please don’t be afraid to reach out for help if you need it.

Until next time,


Published by Hannah

My name is Hannah. I love nature, animals, and going on adventures. Come along for the ride.

4 thoughts on “Angsty Autumn

  1. I have seasonal affective disorder as well, and this time of year always gives me negative thoughts. Thank you for being honest about this and sharing how you cope! I find that a SAD lamp, some vitamin D, and spending time outside even when it’s cold are all helpful for me.

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  2. Thanks for your blog entry, Hannah. Yes, I do believe that everyone fights some degree of anxiety. Keeping connected with other people is so important. Honesty is so important, including being honest with one’s self.
    You are transparent, in an amazing way, and through your honest words, you are helping so many people. I’m decades older than you, but I learn something every time I read one of your entries. Thank you, and keep seeking the light.

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