I used to think that I couldn’t make a difference in the world. I was like “Who am I to think that one small thing I do could make a difference?” Now this was not a good mindset to have. I really started to just not care. I didn’t care how I treated others. I didn’t care how I treated myself. I didn’t care how I treated the planet. I got to a place where I couldn’t care about anything. My lack of caring did have to do with dealing with mental health issues, but it was not entirely because of that.
When we are little, we are told that we can do anything; the sky is the limit and our dreams can be achieved with hard work. When we get to our teen years we are not told this anymore. Most of the time it is being told to find a good paying job and that you need to go to college after high school. The pressure form society to fit into this “perfect” mold started to weigh on me during my late teen years and I began to make choices for other people. I was not happy and I did not know who Hannah was anymore.
I was drinking a lot during this time. I didn’t want to be living my life. I wanted to escape my reality and the best way for me to do that was to turn into my alter ego by getting smashed. When I was drinking there was no stopping me. I wanted to drink and I wanted to drink more. I didn’t know it at the time, but I was just trying to numb the pain of being someone I wasn’t supposed to be.
After this went on for some time I hit a rock bottom. I realized that I was feeling like crap more often than I was having good days because of drinking. I realized that I was filling my body with food that was making me feel dead and not like I was living. I needed to make a change.
I got sober and I started to watch videos about veganism. I was in awe with the people I was watching. I couldn’t believe how they all looked so happy and healthy. I wanted to be happy and healthy. I wanted to have the energy to live my life. I was coming from a point of needing five cups of coffee to just function. I couldn’t sleep at night (probably because I was drinking enough caffeine to fuel a small army) and I just did not have the motivation to do anything. Walking around my block was a HUGE task for me.
After a few months without alcohol in my life and feeling more like myself I decided that I was going to go vegan starting February 1st, 2018. I told my family and some friends and everyone had the same response “What will you eat?” Now, this was a great question to ask me because at the time my main form of calorie intake was chips with cheese, pizza, and ice cream. Of course there are vegan alternatives to all these things, but I also knew in my heart that I wanted to fuel my body with things that were going to make me feel alive. I didn’t know how I was going to do it, but I knew that I was about to change the course of my life forever.
Over the course of the next year and a half I went on my own journey to find the best way of eating for my body. By that point I discovered whole food plant-based eating. This. Changed. My. Life.
I have never felt better in my life than when I eat whole plant foods. I now have the energy to do what I want (don’t get it twisted, I still get tired sometimes I am human) and feel as though I can keep going. Yesterday, I walked fifteen miles over the course of the day just because it felt good and I wanted to. This is coming from the same person who felt like walking around the block took all the energy out of them only two years ago.
I now find so much pride in making choices every day that I know benefit my body and the planet. I love looking for the good in things and try to encourage others to see the good in things too. I like to lift others up. I care so deeply about spreading joy to everyone I come in contact with and I want to see others reach their goals.
All it took was me taking small steps toward my goals consistently, and this is true for all goals. Consistent steps towards where you want to be will get you there. Change is a process, it is a marathon not a sprint. Be kind with yourself when you are making change. It is okay to “mess up.” This is not a linear path.
I love living the life I do and I am so grateful every single day that this is the life I get to live. If you are feeling lost, just remember that you are not alone. Everyone deserves to live their dream life and feel the best they possibly can.
I love being a health coach and being able to help people reach their health and lifestyle goals. If you or someone you know could benefit from help with achieving a healthier life, please reach out to me to see if we would be a good fit!
I believe the greatest wealth we have is our health and there is no time like the present to do the best we can for our bodies.
Until next time,